When will I finally choose to take everything into my hands and DO something. Not thinking, not whining, not wallowing in self-pity – just taking action!
What needs to happen that I start to force myself into fighting?
Should my stomach stop digesting food altogether?
Should I need to wear a diaper because I cannot control the movements of my bowels anymore?
What has to happen that I finally start fighting for my health, for my body and for my mind?
I don’t want it to be too late by then…I am so afraid it would be too late
I am so afraid